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"who has passed on" 06/25/2004 03:22 PM




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I passed


I passed 03/11/2003 01:22 AM
Yeay! It's over. I passed the test with flying colors. (I don't know why colors fly or what that means, but figured that a one-sentence entry is a bit too short.)...

Why I passed on Comdex


Why I passed on Comdex 11/19/2003 12:30 AM
ITBusiness.ca Nov 18 2003 11:57PM ET

"TBogg's dad passed on."


"TBogg's dad passed on." 08/27/2004 01:45 PM

Online porn law not passed


Online porn law not passed 06/29/2004 05:18 PM
News24.com Jun 29 2004 8:34PM GMT

A month has passed with no news...


A month has passed with no news... 06/22/2005 02:25 AM

Almost exactly a month ago today I sent off a form to an organisation called Traceline to ask them to help me find my father. Three days later I wrote a little post about my uncertainty about what would happen next. Two and a half weeks later, I briefly alluded to the fact that I'd not heard anything yet. A week further on, and we're back to today, and is there any news? Unfortunately, no.

Of course, I honestly don't know what to expect. This process could take a month, it could take two months, it could take six. I think I assumed I'd have heard something by now because the expedited process (where you know their date of birth) is supposed to only take a week. But time just keeps passing with very little to show for it. At the moment I'm going to give them the benefit of the doubt and assume that they're not just torturing me, but give it another month or so and I might rename them in slightly more colourful language.

So how have I been dealing with it? Difficult question. Thanks for asking. I guess the most honest answer would probably that I'm kind of confused about the whole thing. About two weeks ago, in the middle of a particularly stressful time at work, I was in a meeting and my phone rang. The caller's number was withheld. I couldn't answer the phone in the room. I hung up on them. They rang again, so I turned my phone off. They didn't leave a message. After the meeting I started asking all the people I thought who might have called me, but none of them had done. And gradually I started to wonder to myself - who could have been at the other end of the line? Who had I hung up on? What did it mean? What had I done? Had I just lost my chance forever? These thoughts stayed with me for days.

In retrospect, what this situation means is simply that this whole process clearly means an awful lot to me - much much more than I had been expecting. This was probably not a pivotal moment - in fact it was almost certainly a trivial moment - no more or less nerve-wracking that the rest of the month has been. I just momentarily had something in particular I could focus on. Or at least so I tell myself. Patience, Tom. Be patient.

One development that has happened is that I decided to talk to my mother about the whole thing. For some reason, I had decided originally that I was going to do this completely on my own without getting the rest of my family involved. I don't think I can explain why particularly except to say that there are things in the world that I find hard to look at directly and family don't tend to let you keep things in your peripheral vision. There's probably some other stuff going on too - I've wanted independence from my family and from restrictive encompassing structures like families for years as well. This could have been another attempt to assert that. But that's a whole other industrial-sized can of worms that I think I should probably avoid opening right now.

Anyway, I don't think my mother realises how strange and difficult this whole absent father thing is for me, or how much bluster and brashness I've had to cultivate to be even vaguely able to approach it head on. So when I said that I had something that I wanted to tell her (and when I obviously had trouble getting it out), my liberal mother (with so much faith in me, evidently) immediately assumed that I had contracted some fatal gay disease. When I explained instead that I'd decided to look for my father, she seemed totally cool about the whole thing, almost a little surprised that I found the whole thing so emotionally charged. Typically she was also terribly - aggravatingly - efficient about it too. She kept trying to tell me what I should be doing next, even though I repeatedly pointed out that it had taken me twenty odd years to get to this stage and that maybe I wasn't quite ready to treat the whole thing like a crusade quite yet.

I think I finally got through to her when I talked about my biggest concern - that I would find my father only for him to be repulsed by me because I'm gay. I'm not ashamed of being gay - in fact I'm proud of myself for having the nerve to be publically gay and not hiding it. And normally, I'm not terribly interested whether other people have issues with me being gay or not. But with your own father... I don't know... I think I'm looking for him in part to help me understand where I came from and why I am the way I am. He seems to be the closest in the family to sharing my passions and interests. I kind of want him to be proud of what i've accomplished - i don't want to be a let-down or an embarrassment. I certainly don't want to be ahborent to him. I don't want him to find me disgusting. And I have to face the possibility that he might. He's in his sixties. There's no guarantee that he's of a liberal mindset, no way of knowing what his reaction might be at all. It's a concern. It's a big concern.

So what now? I'm in the States. I'm going to conferences. I'm keeping myself busy and thinking about wider and more disparate material. When I get home in a week's time, if there's still no word from Traceline, then I guess I have to ring them up. I need to know what's been happening. I need to know what progress has been made. And in the meantime, I have to hope that if we ever do meet that he's prepared to be non-judgemental and engage with me in some way. What more can I hope for? What more can I do?


Federal Do-Not-Call list has been passed


Federal Do-Not-Call list has been passed 03/11/2003 10:35 PM
CBS News | ‘Do Not Call’ Is Law | March 11, 2003 14:49:40 Telemarketers say the registry will devastate their business. The Direct Marketing Association, an industry group, filed a lawsuit against the FTC last month on grounds the registry...

Iran Says Sept 11 Plotters May Have
Passed Through


Iran Says Sept 11 Plotters May Have
Passed Through
07/18/2004 07:02 AM
Reuters via Wired News Jul 18 2004 10:40AM GMT

Anti-spam bill passed


Anti-spam bill passed 12/02/2003 01:49 AM
The U.S. House of Representatives passed anti-spam legislation that provides for prison time as well as hefty fines

Check Yerkes passed away last week


Check Yerkes passed away last week 08/31/2004 06:52 PM
Derek writes that Chuck Yerkes passed away in a motorcycle accident (copy on this page). He sent a mail to the perl.org list-owner address late that afternoon and I replied to it just in the hour before the accident. Freaky. I didn't know him, barely even by reputation, but from reading the memorial wiki, he seems to have been a great for everyone who had a chance to know him. Hopefully they use Unix servers where he is now too....

U.S.: Chalabi Passed Info To Iran


U.S.: Chalabi Passed Info To Iran 05/22/2004 03:38 PM
Free Internet Press May 22 2004 7:10PM GMT

Effects of Smoking May Be Passed Down
through Generations


Effects of Smoking May Be Passed Down
through Generations
04/12/2005 03:33 AM

ESA's Rosetta Probe Passed 1st Test


ESA's Rosetta Probe Passed 1st Test 05/31/2004 12:33 PM

Equipment Donated to Convention Is
Passed to Schools


Equipment Donated to Convention Is
Passed to Schools
09/03/2004 12:40 AM
Telephones and computers that were donated for use at the Republican National Convention will now be used to improve security and enhance New York City public schools.

Commerical Pilot Glider Test: I passed!


Commerical Pilot Glider Test: I passed! 04/08/2005 12:35 AM
After meeting the required training and experience for a Commercial Pilot License, there are three tests one must pass. The first is a 100 question multiple choice written test. The second is an oral examination administered by a FAA Designated Examiner (DE). The final test is a flight test with the Examiner which typically consists of two flights. The Written Test The FAA publishes the majority of the questions in the pool for the written test on their web site....

House-Passed Budget in Trouble in Senate
(AP)


House-Passed Budget in Trouble in Senate
(AP)
05/20/2004 02:24 AM
AP - A rebellion among moderate Republican senators trying to curb tax cuts has thrust the compromise $2.4 trillion budget for 2005 into deep trouble in the Senate, despite the measure's House passage.

"Could you have passed an 1895 8th grade
final exam?"


"Could you have passed an 1895 8th grade
final exam?"
06/27/2004 09:00 PM

Valve WON server deadline passed, WON is
down for good.


Valve WON server deadline passed, WON is
down for good.
07/30/2004 03:46 PM

Iran Says Sept 11 Plotters May Have
Passed Through (Reuters)


Iran Says Sept 11 Plotters May Have
Passed Through (Reuters)
07/18/2004 05:34 AM
Reuters - Iran acknowledged on Sunday that some al Qaeda members involved in the Sept. 11 attacks on the United States may have passed through the country shortly beforehand.

bl0g note that Bill c-250 has passed in
the Canadian Senate


bl0g note that Bill c-250 has passed in
the Canadian Senate
04/30/2004 09:20 AM
Gay Brownshirt Enabling Act Passes in Canada

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Another Pro-Hollywood Senate Bill Passed
By Voice Vote


Another Pro-Hollywood Senate Bill Passed
By Voice Vote
06/28/2004 05:22 AM
On Friday, we wrote about how the Senat e slipped in -- by voice vote -- an approval of the PIRATE Act, which would have the government doing the entertainment industry's dirty work for them (with your tax money). It appears that another pro-Hollywood bill was passed in a similar manner at the same time. This one would make it a much bigger crime to record a movie in the theater as well as add more jail time to those caught releasing movies or music before the commercial release of those products. This isn't quite as bad as the California law that could throw people in jail just for bringing a video camera into a theater, but it still seems quite excessive. It's already illegal to do these things. The only reason for this new law appears to be to use an even bigger stick against a crime many people don't think is that big of a deal. Clearly, our politicians are quite out of touch with the people they're supposed to represent -- though, they're still very much in touch with those who line their entertainment industry backers.

Lawyers Say Marion Jones Passed
Polygraph Test


Lawyers Say Marion Jones Passed
Polygraph Test
06/17/2004 10:36 PM
Reuters via Wired News Jun 18 2004 2:59AM GMT

"former 'Bedtime for Bonzo' co-star and
ex-U.S. President Ronald Reagan has
passed away at age 93"


"former 'Bedtime for Bonzo' co-star and
ex-U.S. President Ronald Reagan has
passed away at age 93"
06/07/2004 10:34 AM

Piracy Bill Passed By Senate,
Intellectual Property Protecte


Piracy Bill Passed By Senate,
Intellectual Property Protecte
05/18/2004 07:22 PM
AGI Online May 18 2004 11:10PM GMT

Billy "Wicked" Wilson of Voodoo Extreme
fame has passed away at the age of 33


Billy "Wicked" Wilson of Voodoo Extreme
fame has passed away at the age of 33
03/17/2005 02:53 AM
Billy "Wicked" Wilson passed away today at the age of 33. Wilson was loved for his involvement in one of the earliest and best gaming websites, Voodoo Extreme.

PHP Blog: feof() doesn't return TRUE
when invalid file handle is passed to it


PHP Blog: feof() doesn't return TRUE
when invalid file handle is passed to it
05/17/2004 07:34 PM
When a fopen() is done on a file that has permissions that are set to not allow the current process user to read it or the file doesn\'t exist it returns false. This is expected. The problem is when feof() is fed the invalid handle it doesn\'t return TRUE() thus creating an infinite loop in the following code example. feof() would return TRUE to cancel the loop and the script would end. There would of course be warnings because of the invalid file handle, but that is expected. There should be better error handling on the developers part and catch the invalid file handle, but I would expect the file functions to handle this situation accordingly.

Will Eisner passed away on January 3rd,
2005 at the age of 87 following
quadruple bypass heart surgery


Will Eisner passed away on January 3rd,
2005 at the age of 87 following
quadruple bypass heart surgery
01/04/2005 02:59 PM
Eisner .. RIP,

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The first full opportunity to get a
signal from the European Beagle 2 lander
passed without news from Mars


The first full opportunity to get a
signal from the European Beagle 2 lander
passed without news from Mars
12/26/2003 06:36 AM
BBC

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"PATRICK BELTON: JUST IN THE OFF CHANCE
THAT THE EVENT doesn't attract much
attention from the print media,
sovereignty passed today from the CPA to
Iraq's Ministry of Foreign Affairs. This
makes the Foreign Ministry the eighth
Iraqi ministry to quietly,..."


"PATRICK BELTON: JUST IN THE OFF CHANCE
THAT THE EVENT doesn't attract much
attention from the print media,
sovereignty passed today from the CPA to
Iraq's Ministry of Foreign Affairs. This
makes the Foreign Ministry the eighth
Iraqi ministry to quietly,..."
05/12/2004 11:08 PM

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